My "New Years resolution" this year was to start blogging more. I think I set the goal of once a week for myself... and clearly I have failed. I think I've written three times in 6 months, which is terrible. Honestly, I am so busy all the time that I just don't have time to sit down and blog. I wish I did. Maybe I would feel less conflicted and unhappy if I got out the little day to day thoughts that pop up. Oh well.
I feel like it's more hectic and crazy than ever around the house. Older child is a complete and total mess.. I am pretty much at my wits end with her and her behavior issues. I've tried time and time again to help her, but nothing clicks for her. She is always going to do exactly what SHE wants to do and no kind of punishment or positive reinforcement or privilege being taken away is going to change that. I can't do it anymore. I've been hearing "I'm going to start being good!" for the last 4 years and I am just over it. Everyone in the house has to be punished because this one child can't get her act together. Now the younger child has starting acting out as well. Something has to happen and change or I don't know what will happen. Sometimes I really just want to go away and not deal with any of it anymore. I'm exhausted and there has to be a break soon or I'm going to break.
